The forbidden fruit.
SO MANY TIMES have we done stuff and regretted it instantly as it gets over. So many times when it comes to an end and you start feeling sad again you realize you could have prevented it 'cause the hurt was bound to happen, after all you indulged in the forbidden fruit.
Though, you always know it'll hurt, the fruit's so good that any chance you get you don't wait to even grab the smallest bite. Be it the last smoke for the guy who's trying to quit, an ex or a poser on a winning streak- it's hard to control!
They say those feelings that come back are the feelings that never went away..I guess that's true no point of them to return again and again or else. If this person who has gone starts communicating in a way that keeps your flickering hope to go on..you know you're in deep shit. You know it'll be over when the person's bored. You know it'll be gone before you're ready to let it go. As harmless and casual the other might take it to be, you're the only one who knows how big of a casuality it can be. The controlled emotions become unstable and you're at the crossroads again and you dont know where to go or where you came from. As sweet the indulgence might be it comes to a bitter end. I reckon too bitter for the heart to handle. Some can keep a poker face even with all the unstability inside while some just give into it..
Now what can be done and what should not be done is pretty hard to determine. If it was something that meant alot, resisting is probably the toughest thing you can do but waiting for something that's not yours to return hurts even more. Waiting for the hope to become true hurts as well, so does knowing that you're no more what you were to the person. That even the people who came late have the opportunity to communicate with them freely when you seem to be just a "depends on my mood" line of communication.
Hmm... But well life moves on, given with prolonged hurt and disapointment but it goes on. As said before you just have to laugh like nothing's wrong and walk like nothing's broken. Time heals, slow but very well. Be patient and don't give in and you just might escape right out of this and no more find the need to hold onto what is forbidden.
After all, who said letting go was easy :)
Take care!
Though, you always know it'll hurt, the fruit's so good that any chance you get you don't wait to even grab the smallest bite. Be it the last smoke for the guy who's trying to quit, an ex or a poser on a winning streak- it's hard to control!
They say those feelings that come back are the feelings that never went away..I guess that's true no point of them to return again and again or else. If this person who has gone starts communicating in a way that keeps your flickering hope to go on..you know you're in deep shit. You know it'll be over when the person's bored. You know it'll be gone before you're ready to let it go. As harmless and casual the other might take it to be, you're the only one who knows how big of a casuality it can be. The controlled emotions become unstable and you're at the crossroads again and you dont know where to go or where you came from. As sweet the indulgence might be it comes to a bitter end. I reckon too bitter for the heart to handle. Some can keep a poker face even with all the unstability inside while some just give into it..Now what can be done and what should not be done is pretty hard to determine. If it was something that meant alot, resisting is probably the toughest thing you can do but waiting for something that's not yours to return hurts even more. Waiting for the hope to become true hurts as well, so does knowing that you're no more what you were to the person. That even the people who came late have the opportunity to communicate with them freely when you seem to be just a "depends on my mood" line of communication.
Hmm... But well life moves on, given with prolonged hurt and disapointment but it goes on. As said before you just have to laugh like nothing's wrong and walk like nothing's broken. Time heals, slow but very well. Be patient and don't give in and you just might escape right out of this and no more find the need to hold onto what is forbidden.
After all, who said letting go was easy :)
Take care!
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